Friday, July 17, 2009

I seriously would like your input....

Between leaving my abusive ex, being homeless, living with my sister and finally getting my own place. Things have gotten really messed up.

All but a few of my polymer clay working tools have followed me. I've lost too many items to list, including 40+ packs of clay.

The hardest hit was my mask bases. I had these specially made, to support my masks during baking. They cost me $225, they are now gone.

I'm not one to run from a hard situation, but I'm really having a hard time trying to figure out where to start. That's where you, my fabulous readers come in. I'd appreciate your input here.

Next month, I have squished my budget enough to cover $30 worth of materials, I need your advice on what to do.

Answers to my questions are GREATLY appreciated. I always follow my heart, but it's going in a few different directions right now, lol, so input is always helpful.

  1. Would you just buy the clay and let inspiration take you?
  2. What colors would you buy?
  3. Would you make more beads, knowing you have 50+ sets that are still here?
  4. Would you start your "abstract" line, knowing that it suits your taste but not many others?
  5. Would you make odd shaped beads?
  6. Would you finally get off your butt, suck it up, and start putting yourself out there? Showing your sculptures and figures? Knowing that no one shares your taste or style.
  7. Would you just not bother with polymer clay for a while? (Not really sure that could happen, I'm addicted).
Not that I'll absolutely go with everyone's opinions. But I'd really like to hear everyone's opinions.

Especially since I'm stuck debating. At this point, I won't decide on anything, lol. I'm hoping to head in a direction and use that to rebuild what I had.

Thank you so much in advance. I've had this blog for a few years, and you've always been great friends and readers.


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3 comments:

jinx1764 said...

1. Would you just buy the clay and let inspiration take you?
YES!!! Inspiration and love is the key to a successful artist.


2. What colors would you buy?
Buy primary colors, mix to expand your palette, and buy gold/silver, etc separate


3. Would you make more beads, knowing you have 50+ sets that are still here?
Not unless you love making beads


4. Would you start your "abstract" line, knowing that it suits your taste but not many others?
If inspiration takes you there, yes!


5. Would you make odd shaped beads?

Why not! You don't need everyone to love your work just one person.

6. Would you finally get off your butt, suck it up, and start putting yourself out there? Showing your sculptures and figures? Knowing that no one shares your taste or style.

See answer #5, face your fears and you'll be a stronger, better person.

7. Would you just not bother with polymer clay for a while? (Not really sure that could happen, I'm addicted).

Go with your addiction cause that's where true creativity lies.

Good luck and thanks for going crazy in my shop!

catinalife said...

Jen, (hugs) and good for you, been there done that, follow what your heart tells you, your gut instinct, doesn't matter if YOU think no one likes it, bet they will, you have a great talent, beads or otherwise, you have to follow what your gut instinct tells you to do for yourself, time to take your life back and live it for you. It really hit home with me when someone told me I had a RIGHT to a life, my life, its hard sometimes but in the end you know its all good. One pack of clay at a time, one sculpture or bead at a time. You will find which way is best for you, besides you know one bead addict who will help along the way I bet....:)

cctexan3 said...

Jen, I m more years away from my abuse, but I remember the parylizing fear of making any decision. The harderst part was done already ... you left. Cut yourself some slack about your recovery from all this ( a suggestion) I know it is easier said than done, but not all decisions are life and death any longer ( like in your old life) but it takes time to re learn how to think for yourself. And the trust that was betrayed that was the worst, for me, was that I could not trust my judgement for the longest time. I still doubt myself often. I just wanted you to know you arent alone and you can email me privately anytime for support or a kick in the pants or a gentle hug and a nudge...

as for your decision, one of the best things I think for ppl who survive abuse or rape, is for them to make their own decisions and have supporters who encourage them after the process. I pray alot for guidance and go with my waking thoughts on it. Thats just how I do it.

Please know you are not alone. and there is nothing.... nothing you cannot face that will be as horrid as what you survived. Everything is fixable...it is how well you bounce. :)
Hugs and tickles my friend.